nostalgia

this week is the last week for....syracuse university. which is NOT the school i go to. here at upstate, the college of medicine has another few weeks....

i've been studying in my fav cafe, and then the tea house, and everywhere has been packed with undergrads excitedly talking about the summer....

makes it a bit harder to study. a lot harder to study.

i have an exam on friday, and it's going to be hard. it's actually 4 exams, but who's counting? i need to do well on them. i think i might. i've been working hard to be the best student i could be this section. but i had a bit of a freakout moment tonight. i was at the teahouse, going over renal notes, when i realized that i had a very hard time recalling the information i was reviewing. which reminded me of all the other lectures i need to review in the next couple days. which reminded me of how it was warm out and a year ago i was graduating, which made me think about how i did not do well on the last exam, which reminded me of how little i could remember of the stuff i've been cramming into my head for the past couple weeks...at which point i started hyperventilating...and my eyes felt a little wet and burning...

and then i tried to remember what the effects were from hyperventilating on the partial pressure of oxygen and carbon dioxide in the blood and the effect on the acidity of the blood....

and then i moaned.

and kept studying.


i'm sick of this. i need the summer.